Ownership does not constitute proficiency. With that in mind the DE would be the last thing a novice should attempt to become proficient with. Not to mention people may ridicule you to thinking that you are compensating for lacking something else.. A good double action revolver may be something you might consider. You pull the trigger it goes bang every time. I suggest as above, go someplace try some different weapons, find one that points good for you feels good in your hand and get some TRAINING. On that I'm out..